In Pursuit of Love

A sermon heard this morning, a word prompt of pursue, and I find myself at a bit of a impasse. Impasse being the wrong word but a potential turning point.  In Pursuit of Love has me seeking within.  I’ve felt introspective most of the day after listening to this mornings sermon. My goal, to listen to it again.   Time will tell how my heart continues to heal yes? 

In Pursuit of Love

 this morning in service
Pastor Luke spoke on
trust and obey, a
good sermon from a young pastor.

the songs throughout the
service emphasized how much
God loves his people.  a people
that he calls to trust in
his redeeming work.

and so I sat, listening,
feeling how broken I am inside
lately, so distant and faraway from
all that is lovely true and right
and suddenly I see it abit more clearly.

in pursuit of love am I.
a desire to feel that
surpassing love of God that
beats it’s way past the hurt and
isolation felt so deeply within.

needing to know that depth of love
from the song “the love of God”
where an ocean filled of ink would be
drained from God’s expression of
love for his people.

I want, I suppose, to feel
that God is in pursuit of love
with me.  that love drives that
incessant voice within me, come, come,
come, repent, love, live.

to have that demand to trust
be returned as a felt definable
reason to listen more closely to
the come, come, come.

because right now I want to
listen. the hesitation rides
hard. the aloneness and hurt
and what feels like betrayal
rides my inner thoughts strongly.

I suppose as I write I’m coming
more to terms with what is going on
inside of me.  the way is opening
to listening to the promptings.

a good thing that perhaps?

1 John 2:28-3:2

²⁸ And now, little children, abide in him, so that when he appears we may have confidence and not shrink from him in shame at his coming. ²⁹ If you know that&amp;amp;lt;/span> </span></span>he is righteous, you may be sure that everyone who practices righteousness has been born of him.

3 See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. ² Beloved, we are God’s children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure.

I John 3:6-10

⁶ No one who abides in him keeps on sinning; no one who keeps on sinning has either seen him or known him. 7 Little children, let no one deceive you. Whoever practices righteousness is righteous, as he is righteous.

8 Whoever makes a practice of sinning is of the devil, for the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the devil. ⁹ No one born of God makes a practice of sinning, for God’s^[ seed abides in him; and he cannot keep on sinning, because he has been born of God. ¹⁰ By this it is evident who are the children of God, and who are the children of the devil: whoever does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is the one who does not love his brother.