Today’s Five Minute Friday word is secret. I tried last night to come up with something but my exhaustion drove thoughts out of my mind. When I arose this morning I had this song running through my head.
In the secret, in the quiet place
In the stillness You are there.
In the secret, in the quiet hour I wait,
Only for You,’cause I want to know You more;
These are the first few lines from Chris Tomlin’s In The Secret.
This week I have struggled to find a quiet place, a time where I could seek after knowing the Lord more. Do you ever have days or weeks like that? Where carving out needed, necessary time with the source of one’s faith is a struggle? It has this tendency to make me feel inadequate as a believer, like I’m really not making important, what is of primary importance in my life. My reading from yesterday helped me bring this part of me into perspective again. That faith shouldn’t be based on my feelings, on my thinkings of how I am doing in my faith journey, but should always, definitively be based on the source of faith. On the Lord God himself and his work through his son.
I’m recalled to mind of how Jesus would get tired and withdraw from the busyness of life and people. Taking time to be alone with his followers, and/or with God. There are numerous examples of this throughout the New Testament.
It gives me cause to wonder if God understands, that he gets it in a way that we don’t. How even though he calls us to holiness and to be something more than we are, that he understands us in a deep way that we can’t really fathom. So that if we sometimes struggle to show his importance in our life due to distraction by family needs and issues (not just being busy with the peripherals of life.) that he understands it.
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As I look at the call to spend time in secret (which really isn’t so secret if you are trying to raise a boy in the Lord) with the Lord, I need to see less my guilt in how I act out my faith, and see more the One who CALLS me to meet with him in secret, and in public, and at any time of the day.
What think you? Do you ever struggle with meeting with the Lord? Of spending time with him in the scurry of life? How have you learned to deal with your disappointment with yourself?