Pondering the word reward, I think of how my lad makes me smile.
I know, I’m probably sounding like a doting mother, and I am, but right now I’m not.
You see, I need to lose some weight. I’ve been getting my mind around it, and it’s honestly a work in progress…just very slow progress….
Anyways, my lad says “mom, when I was losing weight I found it helpful to realize that every craving only lasts about 60 seconds. You can do 60 seconds can’t you?”
Or “Mom, if you make a decision not to eat chocolate for one week, did you know that makes it easier not to eat it?” “I saw it in the video, I watched it because it’s hard and I wanted to know how to make it better”.
He keeps coming up with tidbits of information to help his mom. When I say “hey, did you know I didn’t eat a thing after you went to bed last night”, he is so delighted. He is indeed my biggest fan.
For years I watched
On again, off again
It seemed all so pointless.
I never noticed the difference it made.
And even if I did, it wouldn’t have stayed the same.
On this diet, lose the weight.
Off the diet.
On this diet, lose the weight,
Off the diet and
Gain the weight.
It’s seems to have a different reaction in my sisters.
They work hard at staying slim.
Me… I saw the futility in my mother.
On again, off again.
The point of dieting didn’t make sense.
And so I vow was made.
I WILL NEVER DIET.
It’s hard in my core now.
So I have to fight that determination.
What I need is a change in focus
And so I am working harder on that end.
What encourages me to eat?
Does anything stop me from eating?
What can I do instead of eating?
What better choices can I make?
And so progression is slow.
Cause quite frankly…
when I’m tired and sore…
My first choice is ALWAYS to turn to food.
I love food. I really do. 🙂
But God keeps pointing something out to me.
What is the ONE THING I want most?
Is there something should I be eager for?
What little things must I account for as I push forward?
And so I’m learning, slowly, too slowly maybe?
That when I struggle, I need to look
To the one who holds the answers.
Who points out a better way.
And still, slowly…
And maybe one day,
One day soon?????
The weight will come off.
WITHOUT dieting. 🙂
And that my friend, will be my reward.